Josie: i made bread pudding!
Jen: OOOooooOooh. My favorite!!
Josie: it's bread that's 2 months old,
milk that's a week expired,
raisins i got from john's mom during xmas,
some sugar and vanilla, and eggs that are about a month expired.
hahahaha... dun worry, i smell checked everything and it's all fine

Oi....My stomach is not made of steel. >____<

Weather: Chilly but dry
Mood: sick

I'm a little under the weather but I'm definitely much better this week than last. At least I'm not hacking my lungs out and my head doesn't feel like it's going to explode. I actually have my voice back so I can return to my daily routine of singing off key to the radio while sitting in traffic on my way to work. Yay me! I had this sexy throaty telephone voice last week because I almost completely lost my voice. It kinda sucked when I tried to sing and all I really did was croak. This cold got the best of me. It attacked when I least expected it. I thought I was in pretty good health when everyone around me was getting sick. But alas, my immune system gave in and I became a walking germ. It didn't take long for me to pass it along to my best friend. Unfortunately, he got it worse than me and was put out of work for half the week. Everything's better except for those killer headaches. I'm beginning to feel that it's not a cold anymore and maybe something else. I blacked out at the gym last week and decided that I was pushing my body too hard. I need to learn when to tell myself to stop. It could be sleep deprivation since I average 4-5 hours a night...but I figure my body should be well trained from my college years, where I would average that much in a week. *sigh* First signs of old age I suppose. I'm starting to notice it more and more. My body recovery time takes a lot longer these days. I guess everything slows down with age.
Speaking of age, I can't help but think about turning a quarter of a century this year! Life has definitely turned out a little different than what I have always imagined it to be...as far as where I am, what I've accomplished, my goals, my social/romantic life...everything in general. Everyone around me is getting hitched, popping out babies, buying homes...and I'm no where close do doing any of those things. Recently, I looked back in my 6th grade yearbook where there's a little profile description where I filled out: IN 10 YEARS I'LL BE: graduated with a masters degree and working as a pediatrician. I must have been pretty ambitious to think that I was going to achieve all that by the time I was 21-22. I'm still working on getting into a master's program and definitely not going into med school to become a pediatrician. I always thought I knew exactly what I wanted and even went as far as giving myself a timeline to accomplish everything...finish school, get a real career, marry by the time I'm 30 or I won't marry at all... Hah! If I'm lucky and get into grad school, I'll have another 3 years until I finish school...I'll be 28! Then I can finally focus on becoming licensed professional...prolly won't achieve that until I'm 30. If I really did follow that timeline then I'll be single the rest of my life! Screw the timeline cuz it ain't happening. Nothing is really set and stone anyway so I just gotta go with the flow of things. Life has taken it's own course and I'm pretty content with where I currently am. I love my work. Being a part of the growth and redevelopment of Sac is both exciting and meaningful for me. I take great pride in all my projects. Everyday I learn something new and everyday there is a new challenge that awaits me.

I'm trying real hard to gather my thoughts but being half asleep doesn't help. I suppose this will be continued....which means it may be hours, days, or even months before I write again...O___o

Eeeekkk...my xanga is so dusty and covered with invisible cobb webs! It's been a while...and if I didn't forget my LJ password, I prolly wouldn't be writing here. Lately I've been feeling so disconnected with everyone and everything. I feel like I get thru my days without really accomplishing anything...as if everything I do is routine and out of habit. What I've incorporated into my life and built upon for the past 2 years is slowly drifting away. My responsibilities have been passed on to another and I'm still trying to figure out where I stand at this point. It almost seems like I'm of no use anymore so there's no need for me to hold on to anything. Sometimes it's the feeling of being needed that keeps me motivated...a reason to work hard because there's something or someone worth my every effort. I question myself whether or not I have my priorities set straight but my mind often disagrees with my heart..so I can never find an answer for myself. I guess it just takes time for me to adjust and accept what life has thrown at me. Maybe I expect too much from myself and others. It may possibly be the wake up call notifying me that it's time to move on to the next stage of my life...there's more out there that awaits me. Several times I wished I could just freeze time and live as free and happy as I did this past year. However, all good things must come to an end at one point or another. I've fallen a few times and I wonder if I'm aiming too high for something I cannot achieve. In the past I would challenge my problems and obstacles until I succeed...but this time around, I almost feel like raising the white flag. Unfortunately I leave no options for myself because I do not want to be 30 and still feel unaccomplished...so even tho I may possibly be digging a hole for myself to fall into...I will take another stab at it.